40 & Fat

*deep breath*

I don’t want to be that ?up there ? (don’t make me type it again). If I don’t make some major changes now I will be and that scares the living daylights out of me. My inactactivity is shocking, even to me and I MUST make some changes. I’ve only managed to go for a walk once this week. The rest of the week? Well lets just say me and my chair, we’re good buddies. Can anyone tell me how they find the motivation because I’m at a loss. I’m either the laziest person in the entire world or there is something else. The psych major in me thinks there must be something preventing me. I know what I need to do. I know how I need to do it and still I don’t.

In order to get myself to stick to something I’m going to keep a food journal and count my calories. I’m first going to count what I normally eat. I keep telling myself (and Wal) that we eat healthy- no fried foods, no going out to dinner and we eat our 5 fruit and veg a day (usually more). Where I must be going wrong is on portion size, I must snack/graze more than I realize, I need to drink more water and I don’t exercise enough.  I’m also going to continue my aqua aerobics class 2 days a week. I’m hoping to work my way up to kickboxing. I don’t think I can do that now but hopefully by January I’ll be fit enough to attempt it.

I’m sorry for those that come here looking for the cuteness which is Squidge and have found me wallowing in self pity. This blog is about all things Squidge but if maman ain’t happy, ain’t nooooobody happy.

And because I need bullet points or else I wont have it organized in my head.

*keep food journal
*drink more water
*go for daily walks (30 minutes)

I’ve signed up for an on-line site called Spark People.  I found them when I did a search for calorie counters.  So far I’m happy with it- it allows you to set up a meal plan, count calories, track water intake and exercise.  The best part is that it’s free and as you know I likes me some free stuff!

bouncy bounce


  1. Wendy
    June 27, 2008 /

    hey lindy – you know what got me moving – someone took a picture of me – not just my face – all of me. i was honestly shocked when i looked at it – after 3 years of law school i had gained a whole ton of weight. the picture was enough to get me moving. after that it was baby steps – walking every day, walking for longer, jogging, then running – i’m up to 5 miles of running w/o passing out. when i started, i couldn’t even run a block. watching my food – all of it. i couldn’t believe how many “hidden” calories i was consumming every day. i e-mailed all my favorite restaurants to get the nutritional information on all their food. i started writing down everything that was going into my mouth in a journal. it was really eye opening.

    anyway, lindy, you are the most stubborn pigheaded person i know. you will lose the weight if you truly put your mind to it. watch your food intake, start exercising slowly – take it one day at a time.

    you can do it.

  2. June 27, 2008 /

    Hi there! I am new to your blog. Love your photos!!!

    First off, I wanted to say that you are absolutely NOT the laziest person. You are actually the norm. It is the motivated people that are the odd ones out! LOL!

    I actually am fairly physically active. I run and try to get to the gym for weights a couple days a week (note – TRY). Now, I have been doing this for a while, but I still have a horrible time getting the motivation to move off the couch. It often takes every ounce of energy just to open the door and walk out for a run. The absolute hardest part is walking out the door. Once I start going, I am fine. And afterwards? I feel incredible. I think so much better when I am running or working out and I actually solve a lot of problems. I am in a better mood, I sleep better, everything about my life is just better.

    However, I almost always have to push myself out the door the next time. I do find a few things help me when I am getting really unmotivated. Stupid and silly things like having new workout clothes to wear, or having new music on my ipod to listen to. Oh well, stupid or not, it works. And sometimes just going for a run somewhere new can help. The same route gets so boring.

    I am not much help in the food department. I don’t believe in dieting, just eating healthy. But I also indulge in things like desserts and chicken wings on occasion. I feel if you deprive yourself of what you love, you will never stick with it.

    Oh, and I do try to always have a glass of ice water around. I rarely buy pop, and therefore, rarely drink it. That helps I am sure.

    Well, good luck with everything. Just do one thing differently today. Just one step without worrying about the big picture. It can get too overwhelming.

  3. June 27, 2008 /

    I swear, I just had this exact conversation yesterday…..I have to figure something out PRONTO. I wish you much strength and perseverance….. 🙂

  4. June 27, 2008 /

    THANK YOU!!!

    I do so love me some free stuff to, I’m going to try that website.

    I can’t gain anymore weight it’s bad for my health and I am unhappy with the weight I’ve gained so some of it has to come off. period.

    My first big jump was once again giving up the evil cherry coke. Drinking water is so good.

    Some one above suggested a picture of you… I suggest finding a picture of someone who is really huge and typifies what you are scared to become. Tape it next to your favorite place to sit so you are faced with it when you’re bumming about.


  5. Vic
    June 27, 2008 /

    Lindy, I’m with you there. I know I have lost weight already, but I want to lose another 25lbs at least.

    I find trying not to see further than the next pound helps. When the goal is quite big, it can be too big to handle in one go.

    Baby steps first. Aim for that first loss, then aim for your half-stone (7lb) and then up to 10, then up to one stone (14lb) and you’re over half way 🙂

    As for the exercise, I’m up for the aqua twice a week. I’ve lost nothing since starting, so need to do MORE! That is my aim for next week.

    Anyway, will chat later on…. see you in the pub.

  6. Rachel
    June 27, 2008 /

    ooo I feel your pain. I always feel I am the most lazy person ever because exercising is such a chore! And exercising never did a damn thing in helping me to lose weight though it does help in my overall health.

    A few years back a friend suggested to me to eliminate sugar (other than those naturally found in fruits) and white pastas, breads, overly processed foods and whatnot from my diet. I thought for sure I couldn’t give up some of them being so used to eating them. But it worked, I lost 43 pounds without a day of exercise. And here I am 2 years later and I haven’t put the weight back on. Once I reached my goal I added back some of my vices. (dark chocolate & baking) And I actually don’t miss the white bread, pasta or rice anymore. I don’t know if you would be willing to try it but I just wanted to suggest something that worked for me when nothing else did.

    I know you will achieve your goals, you will persevere.

  7. Rachel
    June 27, 2008 /

    Oh, I forgot to mention, I replaced the white stuff with whole grains.

  8. mariel
    June 27, 2008 /

    protein! when i stick to a high protein and fiber diet..i notice a huge difference….hard boiled eggs, cottage cheese with pineapple or blue berries..yogurt…tuna….mmmm….i need to get back into that…….but im a salt fool myself so a snack of healthy tortilla chips and salsa are always good…good luck!

  9. Maryann
    June 28, 2008 /

    Hi Lindy-
    As you know, us DeMelo’s are always on the damn diets… well as of lately- Weight Watchers really worked for me… I lost 15 lbs… and kept it off… from Sept to March. I also exercise 4 days a week (kickboxing, running, biking). Start slow… with the running, but just go for the kickboxing and do it at your own pace! It’s awesome and once you feel that soreness- you’ll want more… This weight thing is a never-ending battle… and food is a demon! You can do it… I also watched the Biggest Loser—- talk about motivation….. Love ya!

  10. June 28, 2008 /

    don’t be so hard on yourself! I know lots of people that have had really good experiences with Weight Watchers. It worked for me at one point pretty well. The other thing I’ve found is that I need to exercise first thing in the morning. If I don’t the day seems to get away from me and I find every excuse not to exercise. Everyone is different, but for me personally cutting down on sugar and refined carbs seems to work. Of course it’s also pretty difficult!

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  12. bubblewench
    June 30, 2008 /

    I totally feel you… I got weighed last week.. lets say I sat down and cried after.

    Good luck, I KNOW how hard it is and how that motivation is a slippery bastard and escapes very easily. YOU CAN DO IT!

  13. maria
    July 2, 2008 /

    Someone told me it has to be routine.. and also if you dress for it (exercise) chances are you will do it.. I am still trying to shift baby weight.. uuh YA!! and I am also torn because most women I talk to who have poor body images say they got it from their moms always being on a diet and being hard on themselves about their weight .. I don’t want C to feel like that.. We are all so much more than our looks.. and if we concentrate on our flaws and don’t ‘live’ life.. and not take into account what we have that is good,,.. we are giving the world a disservice!! (Jackie Guerra) She is quite motivational.. I lost weight doing Marilu Henner’s plan.. Trying again.. going slow..

  14. Jo Beaufoix
    July 3, 2008 /

    Lindy, I get this so much. I need to lose a ton of weight. Holl gave me some guidelines to start running…

    “your first goal should be to do 10 minutes. in one of the following ways:

    – 1 minute walk 1 minute jog (repeat) for 10 minutes
    – 5 minute walk 5 minute

    when you have gotten comfortable with that, move to :

    – jog 10 minutes

    in no time you’ll find you’re up to a phenomenal distance, just as a natural occurrence! mwah, you can do it.”

    I’m going to have a go. Good luck.