Do you ever have those days when you just don’t feel like doing much of anything? I’ve been lurking around reading blogs, backing up my photos and doing things with Squidge. I haven’t even attempted a post. I can’t remember why I am blogging. Who the hell cares that I went to the cemetery w/ Squidge- blech! I hate this feeling. I have so much to do and I just chip away at it. I’m questioning my photography, wondering why I’m even bothering. I didn’t even sign up for photography club this term. What the hells the point! I need to snap out of it! I think it all started when I read a flickr discussion where a woman who has paying clients doesn’t even know how to use her camera! Aperature, depth of field, shutter speed- nothing she doesn’t know how it works and people are PAYING HER. Are you kidding me?!?! Grrr will get over this little pitty party I’m in the middle of soon I’m sure.
On to other news. Wal come home Saturday night and flew out 5am Tuesday morning. He’s been busting his ass trying to get a huge order in Turkey. Tender submitted and everything looked good. They received news that they had won the tender and the purchasing manager just needed to sign it. A week goes by and nothing happens. He hears someone else came back with a lower offer so they counter offer. In the end they lost out to the other company. A company that doesn’t even have a product to sell!! I’m beyond pissed off as it’s been so so many weeks spent in Turkey working w/ them and doing trials on trucks and documentation and just all the leg work that goes into it. The fact that they didn’t lose fairly just makes me angry- the only way this company could have won was with bribes and kickbacks. How can you award the contract to a company that doesn’t have a product to sell? How are they going to develop, manufacture and deliver something w/ a 2 month lead time?? Anyhoo I probably have some of my facts mixed up but the main gist is no big contract and lot’s of wasted time.
On the dieting/walk/run front it is not going well. I haven’t run/walked in over a month- just haven’t been able to while Wal has been out of the country. I thought about leaving Squidge sleeping in bed and going out for 30 minutes but what if something happened? House burns down. I get hit by a car. An airplane crashes through our house. A gas leak. I know some of those are far fetched but I just haven’t been able to do it. I’ve been trying to walk more but it’s been raining for weeks here. I am getting more and more used to walking in downpores but it isn’t fair to Squidge to keep her cooped up in a pushchair. I know that last one is an excuse. I could do more I should do more. I will do more. *sigh*
I’ve gone on a reduced gluten diet. I’ve basically given up bread and pasta- I have a list and it is so much more than just pasta/bread but I’m not going to list it all here. Let me tell you that is sooo hard. I usually have 2 slices of toast for breakfast and pasta a couple of times a week. No more! I’ve been struggling w/ what to have for breakfast. I’m eating oatmeal which is a gluten item but it’s one of those that is borderline w/ docs. I’ve also started to meal plan. We are going to eat 2 fish dishes a week with the hope that it will be increased to 4 soon. I’m making steamed red snapper on Friday and am really looking forward to that. I made salmon w/ cannolinni bean mash on Monday- it was alright. I hate cooking salmon at home it just makes the house soo greasy- salmon is such an oily fish.
I’ll end this downer of a post w/ some photos- Enjoy!
While at the park the other day the skies just opened up and it rained buckets for about 20 minutes. Squidge and I ran and took shelter under a massive tree. I spotted this couple, they just continued on with their picnic. It is the typical British attitude about rain- just keep on truckin cos it ain’t gonna stop raining! Unfortunately I waited a smidge too long to take the picture