I love the Christmas holiday season. The older Squidge gets the more I love it. I remember sitting on my BFF floor one Christmas watching her wonderful family interact and enjoying the time being together. At the same time I was feeling lost and like I didn’t have a harbor to tie up to and settle in. When I became pregnant with Squidge I made a conscious decision to spend Christmas in our home. No traveling to visit family- I’d been doing that for 10 years, it was time to settle. It is not that I don’t love my family, I do more than they know, it’s that I wanted to start my own traditions, find my own harbor. This past year we moved into our own home. Oh yes, I know we had a home before but it wasn’t OUR home. It was Wal’s home that we shoehorned into, no matter how hard I tried it was just a bad fit. Now that we have a family home and Squidge is at the golden age of believing this past Christmas was magical. There was a moment when Squidge and I were in the bathroom brushing our teeth. We had sprinkled reindeer dust outside and left a snack for Santa & Co and were getting ready for bed. Squidge looked up at me and I swear to you she was so excited she shivered and I think she was floating off the floor. MAGIC!
We have so much more space here and I have been embracing living in this house. Our last house had an eat in kitchen but was a bit short of counter space so we rarely ate as a family- together. It was Squidge alone at the table then Wal and I in front of the TV when he got home. After moving a BMF friend of mine was looking to get rid of a fabulous old oak table, they’d recently remodeled the kitchen and purchased a new one and we were lucky enough to get it- for FREE! You know how much of a geek I am about free things! That has meant Sunday (and monday, tuesday, wednesday…) dinners w/ roast potatoes, Yorkshire pudding and some sort of roast- chicken, beef, pork… you name it I’ve made it and we’ve eaten it on our large oak table. Such a new a fantastic experience for us me. On Christmas day we had a free range turkey. It was only about 8 1/2 lbs but for a family of three it was HUGE. It lasted almost a week! Christmas dinner, boxing day lunch and dinner, and three pies on consecutive days. On the last day I had to choke down the pie. I was sick to death of turkey, I couldn’t look at another roast potato and the thought of Yorkshire pudding had me running to the loo! After what felt like a month of eating rich, heavy foods I hit a wall. I still had New Years day to deal with… ugh! We roasted some beef and had all the fixing. On the 2nd I told Wal he had eaten his last* roast potato this month- cue sad face from Wal.
I’ve been trying to eat lighter meals to make up for all the large dinners I’ve been making. I’m not going to make any New Years resolutions as I don’t think they work. I’m just going to stick to what I have been doing. Lighter healthy options, eating a few small meals, nothing after 9pm (sounds really late but sometimes Wal doesn’t come home until 8pm so we have late dinners a lot), early to bed ( I used to regularly go to bed at 2am), and some sort of physical activity 3/4 times a week. I stopped going to BMF in late October because of knee and hamstring problems. I’m taking up swimming this year- LOL isn’t that what old people do when their joints start giving them grief?? I also want to grow my hair out this year. Does this list sound like a bunch of resolutions?? They’re not, not really. They’re just things I want to do or continue to do.
So I guess what I’m trying to say is I’m in serious need of a detox!!
*If you’re a FB friend you’ll know I fell off the light meal menu train by cooking a pork belly last night- old habits and all that.