Week 37 Weight lost this week: -2.5 Weight loss in total 28 lbs
Sorry there was no WWW last week. I was just too down about being stuck in the 25lb mark and couldn’t face going in case there was another gain. So I buried my head in the sand and hoped for the best. Now you might be thinking that I’m in control of what goes in my mouth and if I want to lose weight I just have to stop filling it with crap. You’re right of course but that doesn’t make losing weight any easier. We ALL know that eating less moving more is the key to weight loss and if it was easy to do we’d all be doing it. I’m just finding it difficult at the moment in my journey. Maybe it’s the time of year. Maybe it’s the time of the month. Maybe I’m just hitting a plateau. Maybe I’m fatigued. Whatever the reason I just couldn’t face a setback last week. I tried really hard to stick to my points this week. I went for a few walks. I didn’t drink a drop of alcohol. I think the last one was the hardest to swallow, or not! I love wine but haven’t had any for a while. I’ve been drinking gin and diet tonic because it’s fewer points. What I need to do is plan better so that I can have a glass or two on a Saturday night. Last week someone commented that I should not strive for perfection and it was a good reminder. I am far far far from perfect so why am I trying to be perfect in my eating.
One of the things I love about Weight Watchers is that I can have anything I want- wine, ice cream, cake or creamy cheesy pasta. I have to remind myself that I can’t have it all at the same time and to watch my portions. I’m also one of those people that can not have bread. I loooooooooove love loooooove bread and I can’t stop at a portion. Sad, isn’t it? I’m also not an island and the people I live with and love shouldn’t be denied bread. So I have been slowly allowing it back in the house. I’m trying to stay away from it. I’m trying to point it and track it if I eat it. It’s difficult because I’d love to have 3 or 4 slices of butter toast and apricot jam… mmmmmm so good… I just can’t. I’m like an alcoholic and I’ll fall of the bread wagon! So these are all the things I’ve been struggling with. I’ve been depressed about my issues with food, wondering when I’ll ever feel normal. Do skinny girls feels this way? Is it only us chubsters who obsess about food all.the.bleeding.time?
So back to how I did this week. I was hopeful when I went into the meeting today. I thought maybe I’d lose 1 lb. I would have been over the moon with a 1lb loss. When she told me I lost 2.5 I was shocked. It’s taken me down another number. I’m now _ stone 13lbs! You didn’t actually think I was going to announce on t’internet how much I weigh do you? I want to lose 40 lbs or 2 stone 12 lbs. Eeek that number scares me. It scares me when I think about how much I have to lose and how big a number I started from. What excites me is that I know I can do it. Weight Watchers has helped me so far and I know Weight Watchers will help me all the way to the end!